Grouchy Day

Today was not a good day to be on my bad side! UGH! It just seemed like one thing after another set me off and I was a complete mess all day, not getting anything right. And, there's not a real good reason for why I'm grouchy. I used to tell Shawn, "I'm not being grouchy! I'm just having a rather high intolerance for stupid people right now!"

I've been contemplating friendships lately. Give & recieve. Email and email back. Nice thoughts & words, etc. I'm wondering if I'm a good friend or if I've been completely neglecting my friendships. I also don't want to be incredibly selfish in friendships, but there are times when you just have to decide to cut your losses and be lonely rather than constantly expending yourself for others that don't appreciate it. I used to be an incredibly thoughtful person (or so I thought I was!) :) and got burned so many times. And, I wonder how it all works. It's almost like middle school all over again.

And at work, which I usually enjoy and look forward to. Today was not the day to be at work! It was BUSY and CRAZY. I am tired of so many of the things being done and said and sometimes I just want to shut my classroom door and say, not think! (But, I don't!) Today, I got a request from a teacher in the building for some "tech" thing which usually I'm not too bad at doing. So, I do it for her and offer it to the rest of the building as something they might be able to use. Huh!? What do you know . . . it backfires! Of course, words got said before emails were read completely and lord forbid I exclude certain people. And, my gosh! What a crappy deal! I was (and still am) a bit ticked off and I definitely learned my lesson. Go to work- teach- get the heck out at 3:50 and don't turn back around! UGH! Some days. . . . it's frustrating I tell you. If it weren't for my love of teaching children, I just might lose my mind!

And, I switched my schedule around at work to accommodate others and now have little to no lunch time, something I used to value, but now I'm really starting to care less. I think the busier I can stay the less I can connect and the sooner I can get relief. Maybe I analyze things too much and maybe it's just 'one of those days' but man I'm really starting to re-evaluate what I'm doing in life.

So, I'm ready for bed-time. That was only part of this crummy day. Thank God my boys are being decent tonight and I can enjoy some genuine smiles and a little storytime. Let's hope I can get some rest and enjoy the last 2 days of my work week!